JustPickOneUK

 When you start a YouTube channel you do hope for success. You hope that your version of art or entertainment reaches people and you get "seen". You hope that you reach people and somehow make their day better than it was before. Even a few minutes of light entertainment in today's world is a relief that we all need from time to time.  One of my 40Before40 items is to get monetised on YouTube and in order to achieve this I need my videos to be watched. But the feeling you get when people actually do is kind of .......weird. I feel a sense of pride, embarassment, joy, anxiety and relief. Its a big jumble of emotions.  When my husband watches the videos, I feel such a big cringe that he is. Its such a strange feeling because he knows my best and worst. I trust him wholly and he is my best friend. So why the cringe? I imagine this is what the top film and tv stars talk about when they say they don't watch their own work back when its finished.  YouTube requires a channe...

 I was on board a train going to London when tragedy struck. The guard put out the announcement that noone wants to hear. "If there is anyone with advanced medical training on board. I mean a doctor or a nurse please come to carriage 7 immediately". The tone of voice shows all passengers on board that this is no ordinary call. This is an emergency. This guard needs help and needs it now.  I do not have any training beyond basic parent level  first aid and so it was a waiting game for me. I sat in a full train carriage looking nervously down out of the window waiting to see anything that could give us news of what was occurring. Humans as a species are quite morbid and have a need to know what is going on. Staff members running to gather equipment and make decisions on what was best to do while they themselves were waiting for news and then the paramedics appear running down the platform.  I found out later on that there was nothing to be done. A suspected heart attac...